So I have increasingly been feeling deficient in the spirit department. Feeling like I want to read all these books, spiritual texts, (when I wish I could ingest them in binge fashion or absorb all the information osmosis style). I have struggled with how to start aligning myself with spirit and to practice it daily. To DAILY hold something in my heart that will radiate within me. I feel my heart has been so closed off due to regular life stresses and other life situations that are present at the moment. I don 't know if I ever really have just surrendered myself to a power greater than myself, I know I want to, I'm just not sure how one does that, and daily just lives with the knowledge that you are not alone. That you not only cannot "fix" everything or handle everything on your own (in house so to speak), but you don't have to.
How do I open my heart. I am here, at the door to my spiritual life and I cannot find the doorknob. I feel slightly stupid at times, like it seems so easy for everyone else......why not me? I want to live a mlife full of spirit, faith, hope, courage and love and I want to be able to pass that along to my daughter....I am just not sure I know how......
This is what I am sitting with today. Felt the need to put it out there. We will never get the answer if we never ask the question right?
I'm convinced it's just brainwashing and telling yourself these things on a daily basis until it's actually happening???
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